Isolation Diary: My mood is beginning to shift through the day, sometimes hourly. Feeling the stress of the up coming election. Also sensing a change in my focus….very out of focus presently. Trying to understand where I am in my life, what I can do, what I want to do. I am so sad sometimes. Like right now. Being an actress was a good choice for me (was it a choice?) because I had so much emotion I wanted to feel (that may seem strange–an emotion is something you feel, right? but wanting to feel it means I wanted to explore it) but I didn’t want to live a tempestuous life, no interest in that. Right now, I am so sad that so many people are off the rails. What is that feeling? Why such fear, such hate? My god, humans are complicated. Then–shift–I am serene. I am brainstorming with Adam about the D and D campaign I am creating. Good times. A nice tomato from my garden and some beans for tomorrow. Could my little grandson Fig be cuter? No. Could my other grandson, Duncan, 11 years, be sweeter and more clever? No. My daughters be more beautiful in every way, my sons in law be more loving, No. And there I am, all over the place. Please gods let me hold it together.
Natalie R.
I really understand the emotional complexity you are describing here. Entirely relatable. Sending you best wishes always.Mandi M.H.
Yes. Gosh all of this. Yes. Hugs.